Pain Part 2.2

I'm sorry for my out burst. I don't want to offend anyone. It's 7:30pm and the pain is still here. I laid in bed and cried for a long time. I said over and over again "It hurts, it hurts." But nothing takes it away. I tried to call people to meet with them but it didn't work out. One of my very best friend is going through their own issue and don't have time for me. I understand. I can't expect people to put their lives on hold every time I feel a tear coming on. I'm reading through Carol's journals. I don't know if it is making it better or worse.