A Simple Goodbye

The pain came back yesterday. It felt like a balloon with spikes being inflated in my head. Like a 30lb hot rock was sitting in my gut. Like my heart was being torn to pieces. Every time I would think about it, I would start to cry and my eyes would start to hurt. What was the source of this pain? A Simple Goodbye.

I have a team member here at work. Technically, she works from me but I have always considered her an equal. I may have more experience at some things but we work as a team. She was having difficulty with an installation of a software product we were working on. I spent about 45min helping her out and showing how to trouble shoot the issue. When I was done I went up stairs and was told my old boss was on the phone. That was the day Carol died. Whenever I think back to where I was at the time Carol died, I will always have the memory of being with my team member.

She is leaving today. She got a well deserved promotion and is moving to the east coast. Yesterday was her going away luncheon. Every time I thought about going or about her leaving, the pain would hit and hit hard. I had to send an email saying I couldn’t go and then went home. Today I start to cry every time I think about her coming to my cube to say goodbye. I will do it though. She has been a friend and a trusted team member and I will genuinely miss her.

Goodbye M

Kel