Things Change

What can I say: Things change. The rational mind knows this, anticipates this and even plans for it. But the emotional mind is like a cat on Crack in a small cardboard box. Up then down then up then sideways. Pause to take a breath, and then repeat.

Things change. I’m hanging in there with school. I’m amazed. My brain went into shutdown mode and it was hard to get it restarted. I’m getting through it and believe I’ll salvage this Term and be ready to start next Term.

I have my resume in the hands of 5 hiring managers. One is for a job in England. I’m excited about that. I have an interview in El Segundo on Monday. Not sure what for. I applied for one position but the seem to want to talk to me to see if I can fit another need. They didn’t talk about it and said more would be revealed on Monday. My only reservation is the commute to work. I live in Upland and it would be like driving to LAX and back every day. That takes about an hour more of my life away a day sitting in traffic. Leave at 5am and get home about 5 or 5:30 each day.

Darcy signed loan docs on Monday. Now it’s just a waiting game to get the keys. It would have been nice to get the keys today because she has 4 days off and it would have been perfect for moving in. But it didn’t happen so she will move out next weekend. Speaking of which, I will be gone next weekend hanging with friends in Bakersfield.

So to summarize, I’m still in school, still doing ok, finding a new job, and over all ok. The only exception is my feelings of grief are still here and still hard to handle some days.