Going Crazy

I'm not doing good. I've been unemployed since April 2nd. I was told to come up to bremerton to start a part time job on the 3rd of May. I started on the 10th of May and worked 5 hours. I haven't worked again and have not heard anything about working again. It was a bridge effort to help me out while waiting for news of winning the contract that I had come up for. News of that contract will not be announced until some time in June. If we win the work will start in July.

So here I sit. World of Warcraft. Online Poker. Other online activities....

I'm ready to hit the eject button and come back to California. I have no family. I have no father, mother, brothers, sisters, aunts, or uncles. My only family are my friends I've left behind. I have spent the last 13 years growing and developing those relationships. Before 13 years ago I moved every 2 to 3 years. Until now, I never knew what it felt like to leave all those people after all those years. It hurts.

I am angry. Angry that I let myself get in this type of jackpot. Because I accepted part time work I'm now ineligible for unemployment. I would need to be laid off again.

What do I do now? I've asked for some clarification about when I'll start part time. Nothing. I've started to look at other jobs. I'm talking to a recruiter in Seattle. I'm looking at leaving for the weekend. But another part of me wants to return to California. I'm alone here in an apartment with nothing to do. I'm going crazy.

While I try and figure out what to do, I think I'll rent "Up in The Air" and wish....

Kel